my favorite thing about you

i will never forget all the beautiful memories we shared. everynight i see your smile in my mind your real one not the one you take pictures with. its the first thing i think about in the morning. sometimes it makes me sad because i really miss seeing it and its rare cause its not the smile you usually show its your geniunly happy and you cant even try to hide it smile its also your im lying to you katie and you caught me smile. the kind that you always get when you say "i hate babies" and i say "you love babies" and you make a giant smile and you have to turn around and hide because you cant hold it back. thinking aboit it makes me want to kiss you a hundred times. i loved being in your arms i always felt safe and just loved you were my first love and thats a spot nobody can replace. i remember one night we were sitting on the couch talking and you were laying on my lap and you told me all embarrassed that i was the first person to ever make you feel loved. you might not remember little things like that but i can play it like a movie in my head. i remember alot of nights with you and things you told me that you probably dont remember i know it might not have always seemed like it but i did listen to you and i remember alot of it some things i wish i didnt....but i do i didnt act like it but i was listening to you and i remember alot of your exact words about random things when somthing reminds me of you. yesterday i went in the kitchen and i started laughing cause i remembered one time when you were eating ramon noodles and took a giant spoon full and choked and then you did the same thing like three more times until you didnt choke because you wanted to show me you could do it. someone asked me the other day what my favorite memory with you was and you know what i said? that night when we both laid in sleeping bags and just talked for hours. and i know to you it probably was just another night but that night reassured me how much i loved you. just laying there talking with you it was so easy and simple you cant do that with alot of people you were my bestfriend. i loved just sitting in that basement chair with you for hours who else could you do that with? wed just sit there and talk and sometimes kiss but im sure there isnt alot of people i could sit in a
 room with for hours like that. that was my favorite part about being with you justt always having you around to talk to no matter what it was about.