embaressing story

i just was thinking about somthing embaressing that happend to me last week. so i was going shopping with my mom for some "girl stuff" and uh.. we were in the bra section and its super embaressing being there with your mom and stuff. anyway these two hott dude walked past and it was like super awkward they probubly thought i was the biggest dork ever. BUT WAIT! it gets worse. then i saw two "popular girls" what ever you wanna call them and just as they were walking by...... my mom was holding a bra to my chest saying "I dont know about this one it looks a little big..." and just in that exact second they walk past cracking up and whispering and i know its about me. now tell me if you saw a girl my age and her mom holding a bra up to her bust saying that you wouldnt laugh.

Boys, Boys, Boys

Where to start..... the thing with boys is that they will hate you one second love you the next then compleatly ignore you its like some kind of sick game. the worst part of it all is when they tell you they love you and then go and leave on you compleatly out of no where. then you find yourself changing just for them and they never notice. after youve been broken up for a little they send you mixed signals one day your best friends the next your flirting then you get ignored whats that about? i wish i understood them. i wish that when youd change your hair or make-up or even clothes for them that just once theyd take a second look and rember. Remeber why they once loved you. I hope when they see you it would kill them on the inside. I hope theyd beg on their knees just to have you back. To promise to be better and actully mean it. But in reality we all know thats not going to happen. so we hold on to the memories we once had the painful ones the happy ones the angry ones and the scared ones. We keep holding on.

That gym class

Well gym hmmm.... i could say alot about it and my teacher but lets keep it PG. Anyway today we had to run on the outdoor track two laps in under 5 minuets i barley made it. Then we had to do an eight minuet ab workout. my abs were killing after that well actully i dont really have abs or fat so ill just say stomach. Its really depressing being a twig like me and having no upper body strength not only am i uncapable of push-ups but look like a dude in my gym uniform because im too skinny. and by the way i have this neighbor whos like 50 at least and he was talking to me the other day and was like. wow u look like twiggy the modle im gonna call u twiggy she was all legs just like you real skinny to. my neice was just like you way to skinny and real tall she didnt get boobs til college. im like uhhhh ya...... well..... i gotta go.... so thats one thing that every girl likes to hear that shes flat annorexsic and to tall. i mean im not flat but im not double D either. hahah ok done with that conversation. back to gym were doing soccer and i happen to be extreamly clutzy and a bad runner so running and kicking a ball not my thing.... anyway we were playing and i totally face planted it was so embaressing it was right in front of a cute guy too. and like really who actully starts with the ball and trips over it by kicking it? thats right i do. anyone have any suggestions on how to get out of gym class?

Home Coming

As of right now im just going with a few friends..... I got asked by one kid but he wasnt my type, mean while my friends got asked by 4-6 diffrent people :,( it seems like everyone has a date except me. Am i boring? Am i annoying? Too big of a slut? Prude? Ugly? To pretty that i intemidate people??? (hahah......no) im pretty tall for a girl and at the dance if i wear heels ill be a giant.... why does home coming have to be such a big deal? honestly i dont give a shit who has the best hair or shoes or dress or bf/gf people get wayyy to obsessed with being the best at everything. (guess i kinda just did that ^ there....)why worry about that stuff isnt the whole point of home coming just to have fun? You know what im going to do? im wearing my converce with my dress. thats what ill do i dont care if people think it looks bad. Home comings about having fun. (i swear to god if you compair me to demi lavato for saying ill wear my converce with my dress i will hunt you down and poke your eyes out with a coat hanger :D)